No shadow of turning... and mercies each morning.

This has been a very unexpected summer.
I didn't expect to be working at Covenant.
I didn't expect to ever work for BEST again, even just during May Term.
I didn't expect to want to continue working for them over the whole summer.
I didn't expect to ever be willing to work in the kitchen.
I didn't expect to be content to live with people I barely know.
I didn't expect to see Noah this much over the summer.
I didn't expect to see my family this little.
I didn't expect that Seth would email me, so that I would be sure to read his blog over the summer- I didn't know he thought that much of our friendship.
Neither did I expect that Trey would do the same, or Caroline or BJ, or that Trevor would seek me out to hang out with me while he's here for May term.
I didn't expect that Kaylor would call me today.
I didn't expect that this summer would be so challenging.
I didn't expect that it would be this hard this early.
I didn't expect that this would be hard for me- for some stupid reason, I thought I was exempt.
I didn't expect that Pam and Pauline and Erika would like me.
I didn't expect to enjoy this so much.
I didn't expect to find out that Tippy had been wanting to get to know me better for a while.
I didn't expect to find such a vast array of potential deep frienships as I have this summer.
I didn't expect that Mom would do so much to help me get a kitchen set up.
I didn't expect that two-hour car ride to be so good.

I like the unexpected.

I need strength and accountability. And milk. But most of all, I need to continue spending a LOT of time in the word and in prayer. It's taken some pretty drastic things to drive me back there, but now that I'm there, I just want to go "farther up and further in." I'm so glad that Noah draws me in that direction. Daily there is confirmation and assurance that he is the one that has been chosen for me. There are times that I doubt that- but they are few, far between and short lived. Just like my doubts about God. I can't doubt for long, because "I've seen it." I know that this is it. And I know that I need to trust that. And trusting that is the greatest freedom I know.

El HaNe'eman~ my God is faithful.